Gabrielle is doing better every week. Her fevers are gone. She is walking with some assistance. She is learning to squat and stand. She is beginning to pull herself up to a sitting position. Gabby is communicating more every day. It is mostly nonverbal but the babbling is increasing as well. We have not seen any seizures in one month. We continue to pray she will not develop hydrocephalus.

It looks like we will be finishing up here in about two weeks. Two more weeks until we can be together again as a family. This has been a very long journey. A journey through a valley that has had some pretty dark spots. I wonder what God has in store for us? I know we have been through this valley for a reason and I wonder if we are nearing the end. God has been refining us through all of these struggles. He has been preparing and equipping us for something in His great plan. He led us through the darkness and I believe He will again lead us onto higher, lighter ground as changed people.

The following poem is called “And God Said No”. To me it is a reflection about why God doesn’t prevent us from passing through valleys and why He allows us to fall into pits.

And God Said No
By Claudia Minden Weisz

I asked God to take away my pride,
And God said “NO”
He said “It was not for Him to take away
But for me to give up.”

I asked God to make my handicapped child whole,
And God said “NO”
He said “Her spirit is whole
Her body is only temporary.”

I asked God to grant me patience,
And God said “NO”
He said “Patience is a byproduct of tribulation
It isn’t granted, it is earned.”

I asked God to give me happiness,
And God said “NO”
He said “He gives blessings
Happiness is up to me.”

I asked God to spare me pain,
And God said “NO”
He said “Suffering draws you apart from worldly cares
and brings you closer to me.”

I asked God to make my spirit grow,
And God said “NO”
He said “I must grow on my own
But He will prune me to make me fruitful.”

I asked God to help me love others as much
As He loves me,
And God said, “Ah, finally you have the idea.”